"What horrible marks? will i ever be able to get iit????"
This was the common statement that i used to recite every now and then.........
It was a perfect day after my board results proclaming that i gt an overwhleming 96.4% that i decided to elope to KOTA ,the hub of coaching classes....Being attracted
by the craze for iit, i also dreamt to be one of them not knowing what difficulties would follow.....
Being out of my parent's safe cocoon after class 10th, i had never realised how much i would miss them there.Not only i had to stay miles away from them but
even i had to manage my own affairs as well as stand up as a winner in the race. Stepping on the premises of Bansal classes,KOTA,i had never realised
i would see a crowd of mre than 10000 students walking up in pace with me with the dream of being an iitian. From there the grip of competition and the pressure to perform well burdened up.
Just after reaching we were told that we would have to write up a test every month and on the basis of our performance we would be allotted batches. "BAD PERFORMANCE, LOW BATCH & HORRIBLE TEACHERS"< this was
the sub title of the monthly test as told by our seniors studying there. First of all it was confusing for me to undastand that bychance if i don't prform well
then will my future be doomed? The feeling was horrifying !! The coaching began in the subsequent days and the fast paced studies was difficult to catch up at first. On returning back to hostel, starting from listing
things that i needed to buy, then arranging things on my own, to washing my clothes everything seemed a herculean task for me.."mom, where is my physics copy? find it for me!" question remain unanswered
....eventually if i misplaced something at the end of the day it was only me who had to find out. Then at times the coaching would begin early in the mornings and i would go to the mess to find empty utensils. "bhaiya, where is my breakfast?", i would ask the kitchen boy and then
i would get a reply that i would to inform them a day before about my changed timings otherwise i would have an empty stomach to start my day with. That tim i remembered my mom forcing me "Drink a glass of milk, u cant go to school empty stomach"..i would get nostalgic thinking about it.
then i would have to hurry up on my way to coaching to get a small packet of poha from the poha stalls before reaching my coaching class. By the time we returned, i would be in a tranced state not even knowing where i have to return to. Then calling up the known auto wala or bargaing with an unknown 1 became a routine job. After long hours of coaching this was
the last thing i would like to do standing in the sun to bargain with an autorickshaw driver and if it was evening time then it was even more horrible because the rush of students and on top of that the thought
that i would have to reach hostel before 8.30 pm to avoid a clash with the hostel warden would make me agree with the price quoted by the autowalas.Then on reaching hostel throwing my bag i had to rush up for dinner. if not i would have to wait in a long line to get a pair of roti and by the time i get that my hunger would have said a good bye to me.Then before the exams
i would rush to dout-clearing room , run after the teacher to get time , then again run back to them on the prescribed time and stand in a long line to wait for ur turn to get your douts cleared would just eat up all the energy i had in me. Not knowing when the monthly exams came i did sit in the class room ready to fight 5-6000 students for 6 hours. This pressure was really building on me...when the
stupid results knocked my cell after a week with my glorified results alloting me a lower batch. The results always remained a hot topic of discussion among your fellowmates. Even it was a matter of prestige
. Not only teachers or your batchmates wanted to know your results even auto rickshaw drivers
, hostel wardens and every other person wanted to know your batch. A lower batch was looked down with disdain. I got a lower batch and i used to hear great comments from some people that lower batches students are just here in kota to build up its economy and nothing else...this further intensified my fustation and out of it
i took the advice of some of the seniors and joined some other coaching class. The speciality of kota was that you could even get a coaching class for a particular lesson of a prticular subject just you need to have
money. I enrolled for physics paying a hefty amount of rs.25000 ( i had already paid rs.75000 for my previous institute).This worsened my condition further , i was so frustated with the ongoing events i started looking up for escape routes thinking a bit of merry making with friends
would lighten up my burden. As we all know once someone adopts an escape route it can never be limited. Since hanging out with friends
seemed a better way to hide up my fustation i gave in more and more to merry making rather than studying.ATM centres everywhere highlited my interest to spend more to enjoy more. Thus bad performance after bad performance became a habit
for me and the enthusiasm to perform well stopped.Even i seldom used to attain the schools we had enrolled there for cbse because i used to concentrate on the famous proverb of kota " PERFORM WELL IN IIT AND THAT WOULD HIDE UP YOUR CBSE RESULTS"...This was my another mistake.....
Ahhh........as u know mistakes are always awarded with a regret .... i still regret not being an iitian...........Yet it was a blessing in disguise.....Remembering the past days, i think it taught me alot of things...Earlier being with my parents i dint even know how to manage money leave about bargaining
with autorickshaw drivers !! I learnt being an independent person, i learnt how to cope up with my daily affairs in a new place on my own....I even learnt the biggest thing in my life that freedom and enjoyment always has to be labelled with a specific time .Frustation wouldnt be taken up so seriously that your very enthusiasm
to work up for your aim would vanish.....Escape routes and temptations would always mark the path of frustation but avoiding that would be a wise person's idea because it may give short time pleasure but at the end of the
day your aim your dream would be the only thing that would matter,..I look upon these small yet grave experience of my life to be the guiding light of my future....
This was the common statement that i used to recite every now and then.........
It was a perfect day after my board results proclaming that i gt an overwhleming 96.4% that i decided to elope to KOTA ,the hub of coaching classes....Being attracted
by the craze for iit, i also dreamt to be one of them not knowing what difficulties would follow.....
Being out of my parent's safe cocoon after class 10th, i had never realised how much i would miss them there.Not only i had to stay miles away from them but
even i had to manage my own affairs as well as stand up as a winner in the race. Stepping on the premises of Bansal classes,KOTA,i had never realised
i would see a crowd of mre than 10000 students walking up in pace with me with the dream of being an iitian. From there the grip of competition and the pressure to perform well burdened up.
Just after reaching we were told that we would have to write up a test every month and on the basis of our performance we would be allotted batches. "BAD PERFORMANCE, LOW BATCH & HORRIBLE TEACHERS"< this was
the sub title of the monthly test as told by our seniors studying there. First of all it was confusing for me to undastand that bychance if i don't prform well
then will my future be doomed? The feeling was horrifying !! The coaching began in the subsequent days and the fast paced studies was difficult to catch up at first. On returning back to hostel, starting from listing
things that i needed to buy, then arranging things on my own, to washing my clothes everything seemed a herculean task for me.."mom, where is my physics copy? find it for me!" question remain unanswered
....eventually if i misplaced something at the end of the day it was only me who had to find out. Then at times the coaching would begin early in the mornings and i would go to the mess to find empty utensils. "bhaiya, where is my breakfast?", i would ask the kitchen boy and then
i would get a reply that i would to inform them a day before about my changed timings otherwise i would have an empty stomach to start my day with. That tim i remembered my mom forcing me "Drink a glass of milk, u cant go to school empty stomach"..i would get nostalgic thinking about it.
then i would have to hurry up on my way to coaching to get a small packet of poha from the poha stalls before reaching my coaching class. By the time we returned, i would be in a tranced state not even knowing where i have to return to. Then calling up the known auto wala or bargaing with an unknown 1 became a routine job. After long hours of coaching this was
the last thing i would like to do standing in the sun to bargain with an autorickshaw driver and if it was evening time then it was even more horrible because the rush of students and on top of that the thought
that i would have to reach hostel before 8.30 pm to avoid a clash with the hostel warden would make me agree with the price quoted by the autowalas.Then on reaching hostel throwing my bag i had to rush up for dinner. if not i would have to wait in a long line to get a pair of roti and by the time i get that my hunger would have said a good bye to me.Then before the exams
i would rush to dout-clearing room , run after the teacher to get time , then again run back to them on the prescribed time and stand in a long line to wait for ur turn to get your douts cleared would just eat up all the energy i had in me. Not knowing when the monthly exams came i did sit in the class room ready to fight 5-6000 students for 6 hours. This pressure was really building on me...when the
stupid results knocked my cell after a week with my glorified results alloting me a lower batch. The results always remained a hot topic of discussion among your fellowmates. Even it was a matter of prestige
. Not only teachers or your batchmates wanted to know your results even auto rickshaw drivers
, hostel wardens and every other person wanted to know your batch. A lower batch was looked down with disdain. I got a lower batch and i used to hear great comments from some people that lower batches students are just here in kota to build up its economy and nothing else...this further intensified my fustation and out of it
i took the advice of some of the seniors and joined some other coaching class. The speciality of kota was that you could even get a coaching class for a particular lesson of a prticular subject just you need to have
money. I enrolled for physics paying a hefty amount of rs.25000 ( i had already paid rs.75000 for my previous institute).This worsened my condition further , i was so frustated with the ongoing events i started looking up for escape routes thinking a bit of merry making with friends
would lighten up my burden. As we all know once someone adopts an escape route it can never be limited. Since hanging out with friends
seemed a better way to hide up my fustation i gave in more and more to merry making rather than studying.ATM centres everywhere highlited my interest to spend more to enjoy more. Thus bad performance after bad performance became a habit
for me and the enthusiasm to perform well stopped.Even i seldom used to attain the schools we had enrolled there for cbse because i used to concentrate on the famous proverb of kota " PERFORM WELL IN IIT AND THAT WOULD HIDE UP YOUR CBSE RESULTS"...This was my another mistake.....
Ahhh........as u know mistakes are always awarded with a regret .... i still regret not being an iitian...........Yet it was a blessing in disguise.....Remembering the past days, i think it taught me alot of things...Earlier being with my parents i dint even know how to manage money leave about bargaining
with autorickshaw drivers !! I learnt being an independent person, i learnt how to cope up with my daily affairs in a new place on my own....I even learnt the biggest thing in my life that freedom and enjoyment always has to be labelled with a specific time .Frustation wouldnt be taken up so seriously that your very enthusiasm
to work up for your aim would vanish.....Escape routes and temptations would always mark the path of frustation but avoiding that would be a wise person's idea because it may give short time pleasure but at the end of the
day your aim your dream would be the only thing that would matter,..I look upon these small yet grave experience of my life to be the guiding light of my future....
hmmm..not an iitian, but an xperienced person..atleast u nw knw how to manage ur lyf!
ReplyDeleteThe result of tenth standard which contains only 20 % science& mathematics is illusive. In this present scenario as soon as the children get 90-95% & above all the parents including me wish that their children should be an IITian. The coaching centers are actually the business centers to en -cash this craziness of parents.
ReplyDeleteI have discussed with some of the recent IIT JEE qualifiers with a rank of the order of 1600-2000. To my surprise they say that they need separate preparation for IIT JEE and AIEEE. To their opinion an IIT JEE qualifier may not get good rank in AIEEE and vice versa. This is basically a myth what the coaching center are creating.
Since I have experienced the qualifying IIT JEE in our days (1983), I would strongly opine that there is no separate preparation required for all the competitive examinations. If anybody is preparing himself for the toughest he can qualify all the competitive exams with flying colors subject to conditions that the courses are same. Further one should have passion for mathematics, physics & chemistry and must enjoy solving the toughest problems without the help of the teachers. Ability to work out toughest problems without help of others only helps some body to qualify IIT JEE. So the teachers of coaching centers are not of use for qualifying the same. It is the student who will have determination to do the same will succeed.
The coaching centers normally segregate their students depending upon their performance and declare that they take more care to these students, which is absolutely wrong statement. Basically these students are their assets to market their business center. The only help these coaching center do is to provide banks of questions to practise. A brilliant student gets exposure of various types of question. The rank holders beyond 2500 may be observed to have erratic results for different competitive examinations and not having consistency.
Now somebody may ask me "Do you think that others should not prepare for it?....Yes definitely prepare for it….but the students are not being taught in the school in this direction. The so called education system of continuous comprehensive evaluation is also making the student busy through out the year to unproductive studies, which the student may not be interested to carry out and do not find time to study subjects to their interest. Further the system is such that all even the mediocre students also should get 90 to 95 % and accordingly the mathematics syllabus up to tenth standard has been deteriorated compared to earlier syllabus. The old syllabus of state boards up to tenth standard was enabling the students to think and solve the toughest problems, just because they had time for that through out the year. But now a days every fortnightly there will be tests conducted by the teacher for the all subjects and the standard of question is such that the students should get good marks since this will be added to final marks. This is deteriorating the ability of students to work out tough problems of science & mathematics understanding the basic fundamentals and making them habituated for not thinking much. They are getting accustomed to the problems which have easy solutions. Children are like clay, from which they can be molded to any shape through proper teaching. Even good students are getting out of the track just because they have not practised properly the right thing and have learned to restrict their learning to the boundary limit of teachings by school teachers who have never faced such competitions in their life time. Only students who are extra ordinary and going out of the stream to solve problems are only developing ability to work out toughest problems with their own.
The fact is that with the existing system one has to come out successful, which will only be possible strong determination by the student only to understand the science & mathematics from the basics and continuously enjoy working out the problems available at the door step from the easiest to toughest without wasting their time. Once he/she is successful and starts enjoying the smallest victory then he/she must schedule his/her time to cover all the subjects to revise and prepare for the test with respect to correctness within a specified time. For the above, the students should get guidance from the persons who have achieved this instead of getting carried away by the teachers of the coaching centers who normally mis-guide by demoralizing on initial failures of the students, just because these teachers have neither achieved it in their carrier nor understand how to achieve it. They have questions of tough standard and their organizations have provided them the answers, out of which they try to create their importance, which does not motivate a student.
ReplyDeleteI always discourage the parents to keep their children away from them specifically during +2 Sc.
SO your experience is quite obvious and natural for all students who go to Kota with high aspirations to be an IITian.